For the first time in a long time, a special day came and went. As much as I thought I was prepared, I was dreading the day arriving. Our anniversary, it was always the two of us doing something. A nice meal, a trip, something where we would appreciate each other’s company.
A little over a decade, all that time together makes it hard to move on. I’m sorry I wasn’t there for you in the end. I tried my best at the time but there were so many problems, so many complications. You put up a hell of a fight, longer than anyone thought you would.
I miss you dearly.
I didn’t hurt myself that day though, I promised you I wouldn’t. The road to recovering is a hard one and sometimes my mind slips. Some days are just so hard, I forget you’re gone. I think, maybe it’s all just a terrible nightmare and I’ll wake up one day to your smile. I’m gonna keep fighting though, to try and keep the memories alive. Hopefully one day I can join you again.
Laterz beautiful.
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